Are you the reason i cry or breathe?

Today i wondered, what if your the guy i will marry?
It was surreal but i didnt have a problem with it.
The more i think about it and get more obsessed with
sex and the city i get, i see how much your like Mr Bigg.
We have been amazing lately and i dont want to jynx that.
But it is making me so happy. When we are good everything
is great. Today just proved to me more how i love you.
I love how you could be around my friends. so much.
I love how once again you have that look in your eyes when
you look at me because it was gone for abit.
i love how we have such want for each other right now.
I want to be with you all the time again and im giving things up
to have that.
My favourite thing still is when we are in your bed watching something.
We often end up just laying and falling asleep.
Even in the extreme heat, it was the best place to be.
That feeling then i was watching the show and turned to you and you
were looking at me oddly made me feel so good. Like i was the only
thing that mattered to you. And to me you are one of the things that
really matter because you wont leave even when your not here.
There have been a few other guys and probably are some to come
but i know none will love me like you love me, none of them will
care about me like you do, none of them would commit like you have.
Its crazy but its real. Its serious. We arnt just some highschool love.
Which would be weird because you dont school and all anymore.
I always kind of forget im dating an older guy.
I was thinking that even though we are serious now, when i finish
school it would get even more serious. Its exciting.
I was also wandering if i would ever be single again?
Realisticly, ofcourse i would be but what if this is it.
Guess the future can only tell what will happen in the then future.

I also cannot wait for the freedom of being 18.