Once upon a time, I had my chance for a happy ever after.

I wasnt worth the fight or the effort.
Now we are here. Like we never existed.
I am sorry. For everything i did wrong.
We werent bad. We were amazing.
Two Different people, Different places.
We were forever but right now tore us apart.

We werent anything, but you were everything.
For that short time that you were there.
Has made you still be here in my mind.
I know your not, i know you have no interest in being here.
i cant stop my thoughts drifting to you.
Its like sometimes i lose my breathe when it happens.
I look up at the stars and look for a certain one.
It reminds me of you, alot does.

I dont know what this is. I dont know what to think of it.
But i dont mind it.
Im not sure of it but i think i was i would back out.
Its good for right now and i enjoy it.
So soon and we are quite close, i think.
I curious of what you tell people.
Im curious of you in general.
So much more that i could write but, im not going to.
Im going to try and keep certain things just in my mind.
Im to open with everything in my life.
There are somethings i wish i could forget but relive over and over.
the sinking feeling i get when i remember lets me know it was real.

Human emotion is strange.


Tonight i went into a day dream, everything that would tear me down did.
i ran and hid, tried to breathe, cried.
Messaged you and for you to not bring anyone else, just you.
You came, you held me, you made it all okay.