If You Want To Be Happy. Be.

 I found this beautiful. The tattoos, the tunnels, the hair, the confidence.

 I do wish more then i appriciate what i have. Im sick of wishing, i want things ohw i want them. It was so hard to even say wish then.

 This made me smile. Because its funny. But it does also remind me of when i was a child, and to what i can remember. I was pretty damn happy.

It does make me feel pathetic. You dont want me how i want you and its so clear. You dont realize how much you have broke me down then repair me slightly just to do it all over again. i dont understand, i ask everyone to see if they can help me understand. But no one can, you cant even. I guess im just not good enough to have you or your time, i just get a label.

My friends are the only people in my life that i will never, ever want to see in pain or to hurt or to lose. They give me the will to be happy and to smile, they give me reason to be me. I dont think the people in my life truely realize how thankyou i am for each one of them. I tend to drift away from the people i love the most because i feel like i cant hang on but im always going to love them and remember them.

 I wish i had someone. Some that would hold me, think im amazing, love me, want to spend time with me, think im important, care about me, to be there, to share the good time, to help me smile, to be the reason im full of joy. I want to love someone who will love me back just as much. More then anything and the wishing is breaking my heart even more.

I sometimes feel like jumping out a window and seeing if anyone would be there to save me.