My Inhale, My Exhale.

My friends,my everything, my whole existance.
Without your love, your hope, your dedication, your faith.
Your faces, your hugs, your time, your presence, your voices.
Your support, your help. To me your all i live for.
Its why im still here, its why im so strong.
When im not around you, i tend to be a completly different person.
But as soon as im around you, i turn back into me.
Im happy, i laugh, i smile, i act stupid, i say whats on my mind.
I can escape my problems and fears and insecurities.
Im always trying to be something im not, aiming to be better, perfect.
Yet when im with you, i feel like i never will ever need to change.
Its such a good feeeling. But then i go away and go back to this me.

I sometimes blame someone for me being so insecure. That they could
make me feel so much better so quickly is they tried or even relized/ cared
that i felt like this. But i know that isnt it at all. Its me and just my mind set.
I dont know why im like this.
I have lost myself alot. But when im around my friends i know who i am.
And i love it. At those times, I love me.

Thinking of them, hearing what they say about me, how much love they have for me.
Brings me to tears. Good tears.
I cannot thank them all for being in my life.
They will never really know how much they mean to me and there is so many of them.
Thankyou for saving my life.