I say and blog the same sort of things all the time.
They seem just all unhappy. And i have to say this
will be following the same pattern.
Everything i come close to getting something happens
and my life takes a million steps back.
Its the same things, Boys and my appearance.
I have pretty much given up on school because
i control any other part of my life.
Im sick of whining and complaining all the time,
im sick of hearing my self say it all the time.
Its just getting worse and worse and my mind is
starting to shut life out.
I feel like i m watching myself half the time.
I look at myself at every chance i see my reflection,
not because im vain just because i cant help it.
I do hate what i see looking back.
I feel stupid and useless. The one person i want to
just care about me unconditionally, wont. Or atleast
doesnt show it. I get mixed signals and take them to far.
I fall to hard to fast.
I cant do it anymore. I cant keep feeling so empty and alone.
But what else can i do, ive had it like this all my life.
Im starting not to feel. I really dont care about anything anymore.
except how i look.
Sick, but true. Im just another teenage girl obsessed with her looks.
- I want a guy to tell me im beautiful everyday...
I really need a change aswell, my personallity and attitude is already,
maybe a new hair colour or hair style. i need something new.
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