I let myself down daily and its starting to really get into my brain.
Im the worst daughter and sister, im the worst friend and stranger.
But i dont know what to do anymore.
There is one thing i want to be and ive been trying for two years to be.
I have one person, one person that i love with all my heart.
Someone that i confid with for everything, someone i do take for granted.
I feel like im becoming a burden though.
Lately ive been feeling like everything is getting so heavy.
I wish i could talk about a few things with people. I wish i could be open.
Maybe then it wouldnt seem so heavy.
I know that i cant keep doing this. Its making me into someone i dont want to be.
Im cynical, I want to repeativly ram peoples heads into walls.
There is only one thing i ever want to do these days.
And it just makes me feel numb and i love it.
There is so much in my mind right now, and its keeping me in my bed all day today.
I wont be moving until i have to go play hockey.