Be My Heart Beat.

Ive been in bed since about 6pm and it is now 11.
I layed here reading a book for what must have been
around four hours, maybe explains why i have finished it.
Even through reading all i could think about was you.
I wish you were here with me just to talk to and cuddle.
I feel so good and safe with you as i have said many times.
I miss you way more then i should and i wish i could just
have you all to myself, that it could just be me and you.
Going and seeing my sisters place yesterday and seeing
that she will be able to live how she likes with the person she
love. It just kept making me think and that maybe in a year this
can be me and you. As hopeful as that is, i probably wont have
the money. But its a good thought.
I was always so cynical of my sister and her boyfriend, that they
spent to much time together and didnt care for anything else.
But i now understand it. Nothing makes me happier then being
with you. I really wish you could be with me now just with your
arms around me, i know im okay and safe then, nothing could
harm me.
I always told my dad, nothing will ever keep me in this town,
ill get out of here as soon as i can and start new.
But that was until i met you.
I want to talk to you right now, tell you everything im
feeling because i feel your someone who actually really cares.
Maybe i will tell you tomorrow if you come over.
I miss you so much and so excited to see you!
I wonder if your thinking about me...