Present a Present.

Insanity. I know now that i have lost all control of everything.
I need to gain some sort of stability. But its so hard when
have of me just wants to quit everything and just stop.
I feel stupid just knowing im just another stupid, messed up
teenager. I hate feeling like no one understands me, yet i
know that alot of people would. But no one can help.
Insanity. I kind of want to turn to drugs or alcohol or something.
something extreme and crazy. Just probably for attention as
i have been told that i am doing lately. That im going things
for attention. I probably am but what do they all know.What does anyone know about me?
I could have been lying to everyone for my whole life.
Only i know me. control. I lack control. I admit that.
But i want to lose all control so badly while being so lost.