I guess tonight told me kinda that she was going on holidays
next week for maybe a month. She never really tells me any
thing straight up but that is what i got from it.
This means, i get to spend time with my daddy, get freedom
on weekends, not have to be stressed out all the time.
Its going to be so good, i really am so excited!
I have so many plans and ideas going through my head.
I want to have amazing sleep overs with my girlfriends and
party down with them! I want to go to Woywoy and stay with
cloudstick! I want to have sleep overs with my boo and get to
wake up next to him. I just want to do whatever i feel like doing.

I want to spend all my time with you these days, i want you to be
that guy that never wants to leave his girlfriend and will talk to his
friends about her and when he plans things automatically puts me
in the picture. You might do these things, i have just dont know or
havent noticed. Maybe i havent shown you that i want this, that i do
want all your attention, all the time, i really dont want to share you.
As stupid as it is, when you tell me your going to hang out with another
girl, all i want to do is to stop it from happening. That would be unfair
though i have guy friends so you should have girl friends.
I never want to force you to spend time with me, so i never really ask,
i dont want to appear clingy or obsessed.
I really hope though when i get the chance to stay with you, it will happen.
I want to go out to dinner with you and movie and dinner with your family
and drag you shopping and just all that stupid stuff!
It will all happen in time. Maybe when you reply to all my messages, and
quicker. It does make a differance guys.

Ive decided i want to go back to how i looked at my deb.