I hate the hype and pressure that is around body weight. That the now perfect body in the views of girls is some pole like figure with bones sticking out everywhere. I hate how at times it makes me feel so horrible because i love to eat cake, go out with friends, eat whenever and whatever i want. Ive got curves and i know that and in a a lot of ways i love it because guys do to. I'm sick of hearing how many calories are in something or how much you ate. Fuck you guys i would have eaten double the amount you have and could eat more. I quess if you think I'm over weight then yeah i probably should look after what i eat but I rather be happy and not controlled by such a thing.
A lot this year that has happened has put everything into perspective. I live for someone else not for me, I'm out every weekend because i want to be surrounded by the amazing people in my life, i do illegal things, not because it's cool or whatever attention seeking bitches want to call it, but because it's what i do and i like it and have always been like this.
Ive got pink hair and honestly the besets truest people in my life.
I wish i coupled have the guy of my dreams, one day maybe i will, im insane and it makes me crazy and cry and then become hysterically happy. Maybe being in love with a stranger will always be better then being in love with someone you completely know. It doesn't hurt as much even though sometimes it can feel like them are the only thing worth living for.
I haven't got time for fakes in my life which is why i don't have many people in mine. I do hate majority of pele because they have all. Shown a side of them that i don't want to be around and life is to short to be Andover down by such things.
I have no need for money or materialistic things. I mainly use money for food or drinks or other slightly pointless things but i honestly wouldn't care if i was broke but had the best people around me.
I want to find someone that is not connected to the rest of my life and tell theeverything, my whole life story. Then they could tell me theirs. There is one guy that knows as much as i have opened up to anyone verbally but now he doesn't even are if i was alive or dead.
I need. To make time for the people i know are wrth it but I'm to consumed by other things to make time for and i will make the time.