Sunday, April 3, 2011

I wasnt going to blog this on here but thought it was a trueful thing for public to see.

Maybe ive been wrong, Maybe i am just finding this out.
Maybe people arent so bad.
Maybe some people actually are not out there just to hurt me.
Maybe everyone wont just leave me.
Maybe people actually want to stick by me through the good and bad.
Maybe people actually value my friendship.
It makes me so sad that i have shut off people from giving them
the chance to show me they are different.
Ive just seen it, felt it, heard about it so many times.

People hurt and i dont want to hurt anymore.
But relizing people might not be all the same make me hurt.
I forgot there are good people in the world.
Only very few people havent left me and have always stuck by me.
So ,so many people have walked away, turned a blind eye when
things started getting a bit rough. Or they ignored it.

People i felt so strongly for, just left. Without anything, nothing.
And here i am, scared, guilty, in the past, hurt.
I cant trust you all.
I only trust one and a few.
Because of what humans have done to themselves and each other.


I am so sorry to the people that care about me.
Im so so enteraly grateful to the people i have and love and trust.
Fuck the people who are two faced, left me, fuck me around, hurt my true friends.


And to say for most of the people of lithgow,
One of my dearest friends came back to visit
i could tell how bad people here made her feel,
it killed me. I hated it and hate the people in this town
even more then i did before this weekend.
Im so sick of it.

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