You never gave a mother fuck.

I wish i could look like how i do in my new photos.
When i look at them im pretty amazed.
But its not actually me, i never look like that.
An amazing photographer with such talent can do it to anyone.
When i look at them i see someone that i have never seen before.
I know and can see what has been photoshopped.
So really all i can see is what i wish i looked like. The best me.
Not the me i am.

I just relized something. It doesnt matter how i look.
Im sick of giving a fuck. I dont want to wear makeup.
I just want to throw my hair up in a ponytail.
I want to chill in my pjs.
What does it matter in the end.
I have my friends i have things that make me happy.
Its enough for me. I relize this right now