I told myself i was never going to write on here again
i was never going to share my emotions or thoughts.
But i cant keep this in and i dont know who i could talk to.
I know their closer friends may take me as an insult
or someone that isnt close enough to feel this way.
But i do, he was one of the most passionate people in my life
and i did love him for everything.
I hadnt known him that long, yes. But i time i have has made
an impact on my life so i shouldnt feel like im intruded for
feeling like this.
my tears and my worry for them is real.
And im praying to any god to just hear our prayers for them.
I dont know the state they are in or what happened,
i just hope that i see them as soon as i can
and hope that they get better and recover.
Everything i have goes out to them and their family and their friends.
Much love <3 and cannot believe that this has happened to either of you..

And now people are saying their names and what happened on facebook!
I did display my concern on facebook but i never said who they were or why i wished it would be fucking okay.
The people who were informed and are being more informed then others are the ones that know, people that dont should!
Now people are just asking and searching for the answers in something that will only be tragic news to them.
This is my blog, and thats how i feel.
I know they need all our prayers and support but im sure they need some fucking privacy!
Fuck.

I was there for the good times too...
This isnt a charade...
Im sorry im putting it on the internet.. but i cant release any other way
and thats my flaw!
But i know they will get better! I know they will.

And no, i dont want to sleep and see what its like in the morning.
I know it wont happen.. but what if im needed,
Im going to be up and alert to do anything i can.